I’ve been thinking a lot. All the time? I don’t know. It feels as if my feet aren’t in the ground.
Many things. Do I love him? I do! What am I gonna do in the next several years? I know what to do too. But one question bugs me all the time is about death.
Its for sure will be the end of me. Life seems unreal any longer. Im afraid of it still. Cos I dun know what will happen after life. more I think about it more my soul rebels it. Its hard to imagine that someday my body will be cold and soon the dirt will be over me and the worms will eat my flesh till bone left. Maybe hundreds will cry for me and then I am forgotten. the thought is scarry. Then, I want to be highlander like in the movie. I thought.
but I know it will come to me at the end.
This thought makes me want to life a better life this day. Be a wise and good man. Do my prayers regularly. Ask forgiveness for my sins every day.
Be good. That’s the essence of life after all.
Now, I know the wisdom sentence that says you shall live like youre gonna die tomorrow.
But , still , I wish I had known more about it. About YOU , dear God…